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I'm alive
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Well yeah, many people probably no one has wondered where I have been.
Well, I've been struggling with depression for many years now, and my past is haunting me. My meds are being raised, I've overdosed too much, I feel like a waste of space.
I've changed though.
I'm coming back to Feral-Heart
Possibly, not sure. I may not talk to anyone, because I don't like to socialize. I've been an introvert for a very long time (My whole almost 17 years) and well, people hate me. And I don't know why.
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Needing points?
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Honesty...
3 min read
If people had been honest to me, I wouldn't be so hurt right now, and then. I first I thought of you as a role-model, then you turned and people started telling me you were talking behind my back. Why? What did I do to you? If I upset you somehow tell me, and I will work it out with you. What do you even know about me? You don't know me, you don't know my story, you don't understand how much pain you are giving me. Dragging me down. Everyday is a simple struggle for me. I just want to turn and hide and be gone forever.
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I'm just sick of this hate. It's tearing me down. It feels like school. At school I'm tossed around like a bean bag, a piece of trash. I've had my head smashed in my locker everyday in my 8th grade year. I have been teased for being short, smart, being be. I have been told to go die, to kill myself. And you think all those rumors are going to do nothing to me? No. It hurts, it makes me want to curl up and be gone. Gone, like I never existed. Why don't I fight back? Because I don't, it gets you nowhere and makes things worse.
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I wish I could start things all over, but those memories won't fade. Never, I'll always flinch when I see you, because of all the years I called you my best friend, all you did was bully me. I flinch if one wants to come near me, thanks to you kicking me around and pulling me up by my hair, so many countless times. I wish I didn't meet you those many 5 years ago...
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Sorry for the ranting, I just had to let a few things go. My past gets to me to quickly, and I just have to let it out. It is not pointed toward anyone directly, and I am not accusing anyone. If you think I am accusing you, please send me a note, and tell me.
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How I'm feeling?
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Yes I have lied, and said things wrongly, but I jumble my words. I don't know completely 100% what I am saying makes sense,because English is not my first language, causing great confusion.
I lie at times, because I am not sure what to say, but I have changed.
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Back to drawing...
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Alright, after having artists block for about 4 months I finally picked up my new sketchbook and pencil and started drawing. I'll post the sketches when I have the time to, but at the meanwhile I gotta get back to drawing. I haven't drawn digitally recently for I don't have the time to deal with it but I will give it another go in a short time. I am a self-taught artist who has major artist block. I am focusing on drawing felines, canines, and horses. Horses being my specialty for I love them and I am a Hunter-Jumper.
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100 Point giveaway
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guess what! more fun is coming, as i decided to hold another 100 points giveaway, all u have to do is
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